I’m grateful that the democratisation of media has provided such variety that I was spoilt for choice. The profession was great, right from training to practising. It was also great in terms of knowledge base and the philanthropic element to it. I highly respect and value it and all the well meaning individuals in it. I have worked in some wonderful places, and the only reason for leaving those places was to get closer to home in terms of travel. However, this particular place of work that I got near home was a mistake that I made.
My thoughts were that if I carried on that way, in turn, I may continue to be “hit” somehow by that “other”. Well, that seemed like the lesser punishment for me. The greater one being that I could not spread my wings to achieve my full potential. I could not afford to continue operating below my intellectual capacity. If I continued that way, it would seem like I lacked both self love and appreciation for the talents I have. The pointers outlined here conflated the need for me to extricate myself from what seemed to me to be years of confinement to an unprecedented quagmire, at least in my experience.
I could not embrace my power if I continued to be in a situation whereby the rules that were in place, had been written by someone else to serve them and perhaps ensure that I could never win. The rules were fair-seeming in principle. However, in practice they may have been susceptible to all manner of manipulation to suit the strategic objective/s of “the other”. A good reality check, when one thinks of expectations versus reality. Some of the skills I learnt during my time at university turned out to be very useful tools; for example, critical thinking and analytical skills.
Therefore when I’m told that the database was not updated, it is very strange indeed, which leads me to think that it may have been subterfuge. Notes I know too well were updated in a timely and accurate manner. One of the key elements in that area of work as I learnt at university was record keeping and updating the database in a timely and accurate manner, and that was the case for me. It was natural for me to do so, the way night follows day.
If a worker is having regular and effective fortnightly or monthly supervision sessions, any mishaps can be noticed then and looked into at that point. However, if such matters are brought up almost a year later, it is highly probable that there is foul play. It was another reminder to me that: it is only when I live my true purpose that I can be of better service to others, lead a dignified life and shine in this world.
I asked myself what I should allow myself to be “enslaved” to, because it is possible for one to be enslaved to something/s, willingly or unwillingly. It seemed to me that there were dynamics of temptation and control, which lead me to wonder if I was blind to that which had controlled and hindered me for so long. I also wondered if I should free myself or not. What was clear was that I had to make a sound decision. One of the things to ponder was: would my decision be beneficial to me? If I did not make the decision that I made, it seemed like I would continue to live in denial.
I contemplated whether the profession should be one of the things to which I should choose to remain beholding. The fact that I’m self-assured helped me to make the right choice. I had to give myself the Carte blanche in order for the fertility of my ideas to blossom.
I wish you well.